WOW am I Depressed!!

I'm not sure what's up with me today. I should be excited--over the weekend TheFiancee and I just got tickets to go to Scotland. She's going to be in a show at the Edinburgh Fringe Festival that will be performing for two weeks, so that means two weeks away from LA. What could be more exciting? Especially since my ethnic heritage has most of its roots in Scotland.

Weirdly, despite that big news, I'm still wading through an undercurrent of depression. I was thinking I might be letting all of the stuff that's happenning in the world get to me. Not sure, really. I did have an interview yesterday at a temp agency--let me tell you I'm not thrilled about temping again. Then there's the parental thing. It seems like both my and TheFiancee's parental units are suffering from a computer virus or something since they both got on our cases about similar things. Mainly, telling us what we should do and how we should be despite the fact that we are both full-fledged adults.

I know the stereotype is that you're never too old to be your parent's kid, but I'm telling ya, it's getting pretty old. One of the reasons I found moving to LA to be so easy was because my parents were so very far away. I love them, sure, but it's hard to put up with the standard "respect us because we are your elders" crap when you know that being an elder has nothing to do with respect. They just said that so we would respect them not because they actually knew what they were doing. I used to think my parents knew something that I didn't. I thought the same thing about our leaders. I thought someone was watching the shop. Someone would care enough to call a spade a spade and do something about it.

But day after day I read the news and see America taking baby-steps toward hell. I keep wondering when people are going to star acknowledging this 600 million (hu)man march to the underworld. I try to point out how shitty things are becoming and mostly what I get back are comments like "well, it's not THAT bad."

That's true, it isn't.

But do we wait until it is?

This is all broken-record stuff with me. Normally, it doesn't get to me. Normally, I read stuff about how a US federal prosecutor has said that we have no right to keep secrets and laugh. I cheer big brother because I love irony.

So, it can't be the news that's depressing me.

Perhaps it's the mega-sugary dessert I had on the 4th at Jerry's Deli. I usually stay far away from refined sugar (or chemicals in general, if I can) but every once in a while I splurge. This time I went nuts because I wanted to induce a sugar-coma so I could fall asleep quickly and therefore wake up early for my interview yesterday morning. Thing is, I had a piece of chocolate mousse cake covered in ice cream, fudge topping, chocolate syrup and whipped cream. It was DELICIOUS. But boy has my body felt it since then.

Everything changes once you get refined sugar out of your system--at least it did for me. My moods stabilized for one. I used to have these weird swings depending on how long it had been since my last sugar-hit. Come to think of it those were also somewhat linked to my caffeine intake, too. Caffeine is something I haven't had since last week when I finished my screenplay. Perhaps that's it.

Or, maybe it's a combination of all of these things. Government abusing its power, TWAT causing more death and deceit, same old dayjob-suckiness, parental harassment, an unusual abundance of sugar, and a lack of caffeine, all coming together over a just a few days? Yeah, that could do it...

And what the hell? Over a week ago, somebody changed TheBlurb to read "I'm getting you a job offer." Not to be rude, but, LET'S HAVE IT ALREADY!!